Ah Hell!!!!! My hospitalization!

As most of you know by now,  I was hospitalized on Tuesday night,  not long after I got off air. They say I had a “TIA” (aka Mini Stroke) *SIGH*. It was scary as hell. I have to see a neurologist on the 15th and I will find out more I suppose…I am very dizzy, I have hardly an balance/coordination, I get confused kind of easily and my fucking eyesight is worse now (as if that could get worse *SIGH*).  I am on a med for dizziness three times a day…plus my usual stuff. I am taking more Ativan for nerves too. I was talking to D when it happened, I started feeling very dizzy and it wouldn’t go away, I thought if I could just sit up it would help, but no, it got worse and worse, I got up to try to walk and nearly fell…(not good)…I sat back down, then started to break out into sweats, my left leg went weak and my lips went numb and tingly. I knew then it was time to dial 911. I NEVER call an ambulance, so that in itself is saying something. They got here at the same time as my sister and my daughter. My poor daughter was so scared she was throwing up. I felt bad for scaring them. My sister said when I called her  she couldn’t understand me because I was slurring my words *frown*.  They did a CT scan of my head and said they didn’t see a bleed which is GOOD, but the ER doc also said they can’t always see a stroke on CT scan when it is happening (well SHIT). He told me he was admitting me to the hospital. Of course I tried to talk him into letting me come home…ever the stubborn one I am…haha.  As you could tell he told me “NO” rather quickly and they finally got me up to my room around 3:00 AM. I slept all night and mostly all day yesterday (well when I could, they kept waking me every two hours to check my pupils and give me meds).

I begged again to go home yesterday afternoon and of course, nope,  they wouldn’t let me out. The food SUCKED major ass, they did give me all the coke and sprite I wanted though, thank God, because I am soooo very thirsty.  This morning the Dr. came in and I told him to PLEASE let me come home. He agreed that I would probably rest better at home, but I had to promise that if anything happened I would call 911 again *le sigh*. So here I am…exhausted, in bed on the laptop.

Thank all of you who sent out prayers for me, they worked, I am still here. As I said, I am still way off balance and walking like a drunk, still dizzy at times, weak and fatigued but I am glad to be in my OWN bed,  in my OWN apartment.

I am tired…I am done typing.

7 Responses to “Ah Hell!!!!! My hospitalization!”

  1. 1 Mr. Fabulous
    January 8, 2009 at 10:27 pm

    You are lying here asleep beside of me. I keep watching you, sleeping so peacefully and I cry. You amaze me, you go through so much, you are so much of a trooper, you never complained once at the hospital (except about the food LOLOL). You are so weak, so tired, but you always have a smile for those you love. I love you V, more than words, you are my hero, you amaze me, you give me hope, strength. You will be ok, you just have to be.

  2. 2 gloriaeleven
    January 8, 2009 at 11:03 pm

    Hi V,
    I hope you are resting and feeling better. Recently I was diagnosed with Barretts Esophogitis too. (I’m pretty sure I’ve spelled that wrong!) I can’t imagine having to deal with that on top of all the other physical challenges you face each day. You are truly a strong and blessed person.
    I just wanted to stop by and say HI and to let you know that I will keep you and D in my prayers.
    And I’ll try and tune in to hear you DJ when I can : )

    P.S. I can’t figure out how to make this print larger or bold! Sorry, I’ll learn eventually.

  3. 3 D
    January 9, 2009 at 10:28 am

    Hospital food..haha.. worse than treatments.
    I love you baby. I can’t wait to speak to you as soon as you wake up. I love you.

  4. 4 justice4mothers
    January 9, 2009 at 11:53 am

    Oh yeah…hospital food sucks….just take care. I am glad you are home with your family, rest well and don’t worry. Just keep a positive attitude!

  5. 5 sunshines4me
    January 9, 2009 at 11:56 am

    Oh Thank god, you’re OK and home where you belong!!!!!!!!!!!!
    I know I haven’t chatted with you for awhile, (my sincere apologies!) but you are in my thoughts and one of the most special people that I keep close to my heart and in my prayers always! And Yes, you are a stubborn, son of a biaatch! Good thing for that…LOL!
    I just read K’s beautiful words as he watched you and I tried to picture you lying there with a small grin on your face as you slept….*sighs* so very peaceful at that moment!!
    I hope you can get through this challenge as well and will be able to have more peaceful moments here on earth!! Damn it V…..you sure as hell deserve it! We need you…….

    Oh yeah, and the hospital food…just a minor inconvenience!!

    With love and more prayers~ Jenn =)

  6. 6 butterflysblog
    January 9, 2009 at 8:21 pm

    Hi V,

    You are in my prayers, friend. May you get better and rest easy.

    – Butterfly

  7. 7 cleverem
    January 12, 2009 at 11:05 am

    I am thinking of you and wishing you well. I am awed by your strength and your ability to stay so kind and compassionate and open through it all. I am appreciative that you generously share your thoughts and self with the rest of us. I know that all this time you are logging here on this earth and all this pain you navigate daily with such grace is creating a path, lined with thousands of flowers, filled with music and bursts of brilliant light, that will lead you someplace better.

    With love,


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