Posts Tagged ‘love


the most awesome thing!!

Ace Frehley has made my little girl K his number one fan!!  Let me go back for a second.

ace1Ace sent me his new album Anomaly about 2 weeks early (before it was released to the public). Well me and my girls have listened to it over and over, it’s amazing! Part of the CD is a “pyramid” you can make from the insert, so this past Sunday K asked me if we could finally build it. We did and she asked me if we could take a picture of her with the Anomaly CD, packaging and the “Pyramid”. We took the pic and she asked me if I could send it to Kymm (Ace’s publicist) and to Ace himself. So sure, I sent it to Kymm and Ace, I figured they would both get a kick out of it. Soooo….

Yesterday I got an email from Kymm saying that Ace has made K his number ONE fan and to go check out his website. I was puzzled and curious. I went to his site and I have to say I burst into tears. There was my little girl’s face and Ace was using her picture (Which he added cool fonts and things too) to sell his CD which came out yesterday! K is on top of the world and feels like a princess. She’s happier than I’ve ever seen her! So you can check it out, make sure you have pop ups enabled, and see her there! 🙂 go to Ace’s Official Site

Thank you, Ace, for making my little girl SO happy, for being so good to us as a family, for everything. We can’t wait to meet you on the road! I hope K’s sweet little face sells you MILLIONS of CD’s!! GO now, and buy ANOMALY, it’s amazing! Ace is back and he told you so! 😉

Also thanks to Kymm for being super sweet and caring!!



HappyBirthday_Peaceful_LavenderToday is my daughter Mel’s birthday. It’s SO hard to believe that she is 20 today. The same age I was when she was born. I have raised her, watched her grow and now….she’s not a teen anymore, she’s a grown woman and my heart does kind of ache. I miss our “dates” when she was little. Every Saturday night, I would turn off my pager and cellphone, no work, no distractions, nothing but me and my Mel. She would pick a place to eat and we would go out on our “date”. I remember holding her tiny hand in mine…oh man I am going to cry. I wouldn’t change anything in our life together. Sure it was hard raising her alone from birth…but I KNOW I did a damn good job. She is loving, kind, intelligent, empathetic, proud, outspoken about things she believes in. I am SO proud of her. She’s a beautiful young woman now *le sigh*.

I love you baby. From the day you were born I was IN love with you. I have watched you grow, go through trying times and come out the strong and beautiful woman you are today. You will always be Daddy’s girl……*SIGH* Happy Birthday honey!

I will post pictures later. 🙂


two in one post…….

Today I have 2 anniversaries–

I lost my Papa 35 years ago today, but the pain of losing him has never lessened. I always ache for him, I always miss him and I always wonder what my life would have been like if he wasn’t taken away from me. For years I was angry at him for leaving me, now I just feel a void inside, and a piece of my heart died with him. HIS piece of my heart. Papa, I miss you terribly bad, I really wish you were here, I need you so much, especially right now. One day, I will see you again and I can’t wait for one of those amazing hugs you used to give me….I love you, my Papa. FOREVER.









Today is mine and D’s 3rd anniversary. We are starting on year four together. D–I love you and I always will. Nothing could change that. You are imprinted on my heart and my soul. I know I am not quite the man you married, and I am sorry for that. Cancer has taken it’s toll on me. I am not the pretty, long haired boy you fell in love with. Sometimes I feel like a shell of that….but cancer hasn’t changed my love for you. Nothing could change it…it only grows. I don’t know what else to say, except Happy Anniversary and I love you…..



good days…

SmilesMy good days are few and far between, but this weekend has been GOOD. I’ve smiled and laughed more than I have in a long time. My tummy is full and my mental state feels somewhat ok…somewhat ok for me, is actually really good.

My oldest daughter Mel came to see me and K today. We were watching old Saturday Night Live footage of Adam Sandler, John Belushi, etc. I had one girl on each side of me here on the bed, both being affectionate and we were all laughing. It felt GOOD. It’s nice to have a good time, rather than being depressed and crying, which I do everyday…

I feel sometimes that not enough GOOD things happen to me. I struggle every day with money worries, memories of my abuse, “Dad’s” sick phone calls. But then sometimes, if I wish hard enough and God is willing, an angel will fall from the sky 😉 and I smile and it’s good.

Today… good. God let it stay good, let me fall asleep peacefully with a small grin on my face.


For D…

This post is for my lovely wife D…this is another one of our early songs…It came on my playlist a few minutes ago and I felt the need to put it on here for her to always have to see, even when I am gone. I love you honey…


childhood dreams…

D and V--drawn by D

D and V--drawn by D

This post is for my wife D. When we were both little we dreamt of each other.  We knew the other was out there. She was seeing me/dreaming of me before I was even born…We are true soul mates, our love is deep and it’s forever. This is one of her favorite songs–she has dedicated it to me more than once on my radio shows…it’s her song to me. It came on my winamp today and I thought—why not do something special for her, just because. So here you go honey. I love you…more than you could ever imagine. You are the most beautiful thing in the world, you are so kind, so loving, so patient, intelligent..I could go on and on. Never forget baby our love is everlasting..forever and a day….

Mmmm it just started to rain here, a nice warm rain. Shall we go dance in it honey???

BTW–It’s my first try at making a video for youtube, so don’t critique me too much hahahaha.


happy 4th anniversary..D and V for ever..



V And D Forever!

V And D Forever!




4 years ago today D and I met at deviantArt. I had written a blog about living with cancer and she found it after I commented on one of her “V for Vendetta” art pieces she had drawn. She sent me a simple note, not knowing if I was male or female…she said “you have cancer, talk to me….”. I wrote her back a long note back…we started talking back and forth on deviantArt in notes then took it to email, then to Yahoo Voice haha. We fell in love fast, because we are truesoul mates, I had dreamt about her when I was YOUNG, I remember telling Kevin when we were about 10 years old that there was a woman for me out there, my soul mate and one day I would find her. I did, she finally found me…rescued me. We met in May and married in August, on Aug. 9th the anniversary of my Papa’s death. I felt him telling me to marry her then….so we waited until that date…as I said in previous blog, I FELT him there as we read our vows to each other, he was smiling down on us.

Her love for me blew me away. Her devotion and how she listened to me as FINALLY I poured out my stories of my abuse. Things I had never told ANYONE. So many nights of talking, crying and loving as I purged…she was my rock. She has never judged me for anything I’ve ever said or done. She just holds me and lets me get it out…loving me more with every minute. I don’t know how I lived my life before without her in it. It’s almost like I don’t have a “past” with other people…only her and I.

Some people said we wouldn’t make it…(assholes). Well LOOK we made it, and we will be together forever, in this life and OUR heaven. I love you baby, forever and a day…thank you for loving me…

All souls last forever– so we need never fear goodbye…
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