Fight the fight alone
When the world is full of victims
Dims a fading light
In our souls
Leave the peace alone
How we all are slowly changing
Dims a fading light
In our souls
In my opinion seeing is to know
The things we hold
Are always first to go
And who’s to say
We won’t end up alone
On broken wings I’m falling
And it won’t be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I’m bleeding
And it won’t be long
I’ve got to find that meaning
I’ll search for so long
Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever
Will you lay me down
In the same place with all I love
Mend the broken homes
Care for them they are our brothers
Save the fading light in our souls
In my opinion seeing is to know
What you give
Will always carry you
And who’s to say
We won’t survive it too
On broken wings I’m falling
And it won’t be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I’m bleeding
And it won’t be long
I’ve got to find that meaning
I’ll search for so long
Set a-free all
Relying on their will
To make me all that I am
And all that I’ll be
Set a-free all
Will fall between the cracks
With memories of all that I am
And all that I’ll be
On broken wings I’m falling
And it won’t be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I’m bleeding
And it won’t be long
I’ve got to find that meaning
I’ll search for so long….
I am a quiet and shy in person. Intelligent, introverted, big-hearted, loving and kind. I am dark, I have always had a dark personality and a morbid sense of humor, gotta love me. I have a lot of unbelievable things that have happened and still happen in my life. I will touch on those more as I blog. Let’s see. I am autistic (high functioning), I am a musician and artist. I love to be creative. I write a little, but I WILL NOT profess to be really good at it, it is just an outlet for me. I have written some short stories, some erotic short stories and I enjoy writing poetry, when I don’t have some kind of writer’s block, which I seem to be getting more and more these days.
I am an advocate for abused and/or missing children. Being abused myself all of these years has lead me to want to help the kids that don’t have a voice. Yes, unfortunately in our country, children do not have a voice, nor do they have the proper protection. Someone has to scream out for these kids!!
I am a DJ, if you are interested in hearing me, you can ask me where and I will link you. 😉 I would actually LOVE it, if people want to tune in. I have a lot of fun with it, and I have lots of great music in my playlists.
I am married to a beautiful woman Dorian Lee/Hartley, as most of you know her. She is my life, my heart and my soul mate. I love her more than I can even put down in words. We also have a best friend Kevin, who is THE most fabulous person I know. I love them with all my heart.

I am suffering from cancer, specifically CML (Chronic Myelogenous Leukemia). I don’t expect NOR want pity. I am just looking for friendship, people who actually want to read what I write about. I am also an abuse survivor. I suffered terrible physical, sexual and emotional abuse from my “father” for more years than I care to admit. I guess I hope that if my blogs about my illness and/or abuse can touch just ONE person, then I am happy. I used to blog freely about these issues until my daughter and sisters starting following me on my other sites. It hurts them when they see blogs about my illness or abuse, so I ended up censoring myself. Now I feel free to blog again and I HOPE by doing this, I can help someone else out there.

That is it. If you want to know more about me, feel free to ask me.

 

 

 

 


19 Responses to “Want to know me?”


  1. November 25, 2008 at 7:31 am

    Just a HI to you man. Great blog. Keep blogging. So unfortunate that you are/were suffering. It happens. Leave them behind and enjoy the moment. Good luck. LL get back soon 🙂

    Freddie

  2. 2 V
    November 25, 2008 at 11:04 am

    Thank you for coming to my blog and commenting, Freddie! 🙂

  3. 3 Carrie Burrows
    November 25, 2008 at 12:58 pm

    Just wanted to say I stopped by after seeing you on BlogCatalog and I hope your road to recovery gets shorter.

  4. 4 V
    November 25, 2008 at 1:02 pm

    Hey Carrie! Thank you so much for commenting. Please leave me a link to your blog so I can read and comment you as well!

  5. 5 Carrie Burrows
    November 25, 2008 at 9:48 pm

    Sure thing!

    Live From Beer Can Hill

  6. 6 feralwisdom
    November 26, 2008 at 12:29 am

    Hello. You came to visit us at “It’s Not Your Fault” blog. Of course, please feel free to list us for anyone who might like to read it. I started to read some of yours. Sounds like you are struggling with your fair share of life’s rather horrific twists and turns. We understand. My partner and I built our blog as we both suffered different forms of abuse/assault and wanted to start putting everything in one place. Sometimes I can’t believe how much we are asked to make peace with but surely time will heal us and we are not alone.

  7. 7 V
    November 26, 2008 at 10:33 am

    Hey there feralwisdom, I think I lost the URL to your blog. My browser was giving me fits yesterday and kept shutting down on me. hahaha If you could, please leave me your link here and I will definitely put you on my blogroll! I AM struggling, but it is my destiny for some reason and I accept it. Some days are harder than others, but what can you do? I have to live, I have to keep loving those who love me. I want to give them the best of me, even if the best of me at that time is a weak, crying mess. I am glad you have started your blog with your partner! I wish you both the best, and NO you are not alone!

  8. 8 feralwisdom
    November 28, 2008 at 9:17 pm

    Hi there. I really feel for you. Some days it just seems so unfair that life continues to test your limits. I work very hard to celebrate every moment of happiness and be very thankful for the good people in my life, as you seem to as well. I am not really a religious person, so I find the idea that “God is not giving me anything he doesn’t believe I can handle” an ineffective explanation. So, I seek to touch base with others, to talk it all out and work at making sense of these battles. So…our link is http://helpnyf.wordpress.com. Hope to hear from you again some time.

  9. December 11, 2008 at 11:13 pm

    Hi
    First time i saw ur pict on the page of New Dashboard Design for leaving comments, i thought that i ever met you even give my comment times ago on my bahasa – my language. maybe i’m wrong. then i’m here now. i love your page. Feel like my ‘home’.
    when i read “want to know me” … i have feeling that we have the same ‘sense’ even something more that i could not say in my words, just my feeling.
    I had one page telling about my life in the past time so detail, but i kept as private some weeks ago. Then i read this page. i found my self … i’m not alone as you said: No you are not alone.
    i love art too. I’m a new comer on DA. I’m glad to know you.
    *dinda’kk, from Ina (Indonesia)*

  10. December 12, 2008 at 10:11 am

    Hi I am new to your blog, thanks for visiting mine, http://www.rightsformothers.com. (I haven’t figured out how to make this bold, I’ve tried, maybe after the fact??) I am very interested in your blog, and I appreciate people like you willing to share your struggles with everything. Thanks, and take care! I’ll be back for sure…

    Nancy
    http://www.rightsformothers.com

  11. 11 mile191
    December 16, 2008 at 2:50 am

    V. I HAD TO LET YOU KNOW RIGHT HERE THAT YOU HAVE MADE A DIFFERENCE IN ONE PERSONS LIFE. MINE. YOU HAVE MEANT MUCH TO ME IN MY HEALING. AND YOU ARE AMAZING AND KIND. FOR ALL YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH, THIS IS THE RESULT, BEING ABLE TO HELP ME, WHO FELT HELPLESS. AND I DON’T BELIEVE THAT IT IS BY CHANCE THAT THEY CALL ME hope HOPE HOpe hoPE. YES HOPE. SO YOU HAVE DONE WELL, MY FRIEND. MY LOVE AND SAFE HUGS AND PRAYERS. TO YOU AND TO YOUR FAMILY. THANKS FOR BEING HERE, FOR SURVIVING, AND FOR TRYING TO MAKE IT EVEN ONE DAY AT A TIME…YOU WILL HAVE MY DAILY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

  12. 12 lilystcyr
    April 7, 2009 at 10:57 pm

    Hi V!!!

    I just signed up for a blog here. I have one at livejournal, but I’m going to import it over here. I figured out how to do that, but I sure am confused about some other stuff, whew! It’s just a lot different.
    Can you add friends here? That’s how it worked with my old blog? I tried to add you, but I’m not sure if it worked or not. It looks as if you have to add the email of the person you want to add, which is a pain if you don’t know what it is!! But, you posted one, so I tried it.
    I’ll see how this goes and maybe I’ll stay!
    I hope you a super-duper well today!!!

    -Sheri
    PS. I remembered the bold, ha-ha!

  13. May 13, 2009 at 11:13 am

    Your blog is fucking awesome.. I tip my hat to you sir..

    http://thenoz.wordpress.com

  14. 14 katzpawz
    May 14, 2009 at 9:19 pm

    Thanks for the Blessing of knowing you – even for awhile. I know you leave good footprints in the lives of all you touch!
    Katz
    PS: Your wife is equally as beautiful!

  15. 15 missjean101
    May 31, 2009 at 12:31 am

    READ MOST OF YOUR BLOG WHEN IS YOUR POD CAST …LOOKS LIKE YOU JUST HAD YOUR SHOW!
    STAY IN TOUCH WOULD LIKE TO HEAR WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY ABOUT FEMALE CHILD SEX OFFENDERS
    OR PETIFILE YOUR ONE OF A VERY FEW THAT EVEN KNOW THAT THIS IS HAPPING IN THIS WORLD.
    THANK YOU FOR GIVEING ME THE LINK….


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